Maybe I should just harden my heart you know. Maybe if I do that then everything would be okay. I wouldn't be this pityful looking at post up on craigslist of women out there looking for a man in there lives. Don't get me wrong. These ladies should find there love one in the future and I hope that they would find them soon. I guess I'm just to picky for my own good. God, ranting about myself. The causes of late night delirium I guess. I just wish that finding my true one shouldn't be this hard but i guess it's just is. Maybe I should just get along with the arranged marriage thing and then maybe just try to be happy my own way like how i've always been. It just dawned to me that all this time i'm just happy with lying to myself. Well I guess just watching smallville just brings out everything from it's shell. Or could be the late night delirium, whose to say. Just maybe maybe if I harden my heart then I can go through one more step on finding her. The onw that will crumble the shell created then everything will go accoringly.. Guessing maybe... Grrr post dramatic stress...